Si bayi gebu dan Rohingya

Baru fikir nak berkarya di musim panas. Malangnya fikiran cair menjadi angan-angan semata. Akhirnya pulang semula ke tanah air kedua, makin sejuk sejak ditinggalkan berbulan lalu. Tiada yang berubah, cumanya cawangan kedai makan Ceasar 2 yang dibuka 10 langkah dari kedai asli yang terletak 20 langkah dari rumah dah tak tahu apa jadi. Entahlah apa punya strategi pemasaran diorang guna, tapi terbukti tak menjadi jugak. 

Sebagai satu ritual bedah siasat samada cuti musim panas aku memberi manfaat atau tidak. Aku bagi mata 6/10 dalam skor kemanfaatan. Pasang cita-cita nak bercuti di Taman Negara Bako tak pun snorkeling di Pulau Mabul sambil nyanyi lagu 'bawa aku pergi pacu laju-laju kita lari dari realiti, buku merah jangan lupa bawa moga-moga belum tamat tempoh'. Namun sekali lagi cita-cita hanya tumbuh menjadi buah angan-angan yang manis bak epal di dahan, namun tak berkesampaian. 

Gambar si bayi gebu karya Adik Kesayangan

Namun kali ni walaupun kurang mengembara melihat alam, banyak keluar belajar tentang hidup; tanggungjawab dan komitmen. Bak kata orang Inggeris, tiada harga (baca: priceless). Belajar jadi anak, jadi adik, jadi pak ngah, jadi cucu, jadi orang. 

Seronok ber-dating dengan Tok Mi, bersembang macam orang tua sambil beli ikan dan sayur di Agro Bazaar. Seronok teman abang ipar tunggu ayun masuk labor dekat dua hari, tak seronok bila ada komplikasi. Betul sistem kesihatan kita ada masalah. Bila dah jadi, masing-masing tunding jari. Tapi Alhamdulillah anak buah pertama secomel pak cik-nya sihat dan aktif serta gebu. Seronok belajar ada anak, dipancut air kecil di baju sama-sama dengan ayun. Walaupun cuma sanggup teman untuk bangun dodoikan anak bila menangis dua tiga pagi hanya buat 2 hari. Hah, salut semua ibu, salut.

Seronok bila sempat bawa ayun dan bayi kecil gebu ke klinik dan hospital. Sekurang-kurangnya ada juga memori untuk aku ceritakan pada si bayi gebu bila dia dah besar nanti; "dulu masa Irfan kecik, pak ngah ... bla bla" dah masa aku dengan mereka singkat, dan akan lebih singkat. Keindahan keluarga. Hah, tiada harga.

Sedikit kurang enak bila pak cik mak cik di hospital apabila bersembang rangkul sekali-lah dengan doktor tanya 'your wife aaa, delivered normally or by c-sect?" lepas tu mulalah penerangan aku ni adik, ayah-nya bekerja jauh. Dapatlah respon 'haa patutlah muka nampak sama' 'wahh very good brother aa you'. Apa-apa lah labu.

Apabila dileraikan segala simpulan. Maka boleh lah aku katakan, musim panas yang agak bermanfaat walaupun unik. Terima kasih keluarga, terima kasih negara. Tolonglah kekalkan keamanan.

Mari mulakan langkah baru, langkah Orthopedik dan Rheumatology. Semoga berjaya.

Aku selit sekali video yang sangat lambat aku siapkan dari tarikh yang dijanjikan. Program 'Make Them Smile' bersama adik-adik di Sekolah Komuniti Rohingya, Kg. Cheras Baru.

Make Them Smile

Mereka memerlukan tenaga pengajar, pergilah singgah! 

#kemanisan madu takkan dilupakan :)

The Berjaya Project

Creating a video is hard, it's not like taking a picture where we just have to snap the shutter button and and few seconds later its done. Your hands need to be steady if you're recording a movement, you need to find ways to record a better audio because a RM1000 external dslr microphone is just out of the question for an amateur filmmaker like me (unless we win!). People will stare, at you and the person you are recording, especially in public spaces, and I'm not comfortable of being stared at, and if you're carrying a DIY camera rig which looks really weird, it worsens the situation. I've learnt a lot while making my friend's pre-wedding video, and it truly reflects on this one. The berjaya project is like something that I have to do, to remind myself that I must learn from my mistakes. Previously, the audio was horrible, with winds whooshing around, we could barely hear the dialogue, although after I enhanced it by 500% after editing. I made wrong choices in lens selection, never use a f1.4 50mm lens with autofocus on while recording a movement, it destroys everything. Do not use autofocus while recording a conversation if you are using a dslr for recording, because you'll hear the focusing motor thingy turning. Do more than 3 takes per scene, because it will not only help your actors to rehearse and practice, but it will give you a hand-full of videos you could choose during editing, just imagine that your actors nailed a scene but later you found out that you accidentally touched the microphone jack and it makes that rushhghfsshh sound. It happened to me.

It took me several long showers, unimaginable amount of caffein, and countless hours of staring at people to come up with the video concept. All I could think about is I need to create some shocking moments in this video, and I won't tell you what it is because it will just ruin the viewing experience. So I called up my friend; ilmi. I presented my storyline, he added more ideas. We put together a storyboard, a shooting schedule, he tweeted about anyone who's interested of being apart of the project, and we got our actors, very talented actors. That was it, the beginning of our journey through the Berjaya youth short film competition.

Operation: Tampal
Location: KL sentral, KLCC.

The very next day, we rendezvous with our actors at KL sentral. We were late because we got lost on our way to the sentral, my bad. I did became more nervous than the actors before we started recording in the middle of KL sentral because people will stare and have like 'what the hack are you guys doing' faces but then when we started recording, and people started to smile, I got into the rhythm. It was a fun day, and because we did actually continue the It's not over theme, we decided that each time a stranger came and asked for help, we will help. A makcik working at mcdonalds came by and started to ask if we could translate a latter into english for her relative, saying it was really important and he will loose his visa or something, I didn't really get the whole story though, but I gave her my email saying that I will try to help, but she didn't email me the latter, so what to do.  

The whole crew

Recording in public areas, especially when we started to involve people we never met, thought me one thing; smile. It makes them comfortable and you can actually ask them to wave or something, and never forget to say thank you. The only thing that ruined the day was when a security guard at KLCC park approached us and said 'sorreey dik, tak boleh pegang pegang kad ni'. Ingat orang buat rally bersih 3.0 ke apa. Being apart of the Egyptian Revolution had thought me to fight, but we didn't, it was KLCC not Tahrir square. So we improvised the last scene, we didn't use the cards. Thank you pak cik guard. We should do a story about you someday.

Operation: Budak sekolah
Location: Sekolah Alam Megah, Subang Alam.

I never knew that morning school ends at 2pm, we did actually waited outside for about 2 hours worrying if that day was a school holiday because we could't see anyone with school uniforms. Recording infront of a school went alright. My fear is that a teacher or the school's security guard will chase us away, fearing us to be peadobears or something, as our actor did really look like  school girls (this is a compliment zana and fiqah). Doing a scene along a busy street was quite dangerous, we have to wait until the road was clear and quickly take the shot and do it again and again. Credits should go to our talented actors, who never whine about the heat and such, just don't change if someday you guys made it to the A-list alright. After all scenes were successfully recorded, we went straight to upstairs, subang for our lunch/tea/dinner. Excellent food plus great company is a good way to end a day.

You can see the rig, and budak sekolah yang ilmi kidnaped 

Operation: Deliver

I just hate editing. If you're great in sony vegas or adobe premiere or any other video editing software, do give me a tweet. I rather be under the heat shooting videos than sitting on a chair editing stuff, it's time consuming, it's dreadful, it's horrible. But I have to do it, with limited editing. iMovie is great, but for future videos, I'm thinking of explosions, fire, lightsabers and all those cool stuff.

After sleepless nights, and days. We managed to put together a video. Uploaded it to their website the night of the dateline. But considering I had to compress a HD video which was 800mb into a small quality 40mb video as a requirement from the officials, I was really concerned about the quality drop. So together with ilmi, we decided to drive all the way to hartamas, well ilmi was the one driving, I happened to be a sleepy GPS beside him, we didn't get any sleep the night before, so both were quite in the air. Nearly had an accident, but we survive. 

All we can do now, is to pray that Afdlin shauki, Aniu, and Gayatri Pillai will have a soft spot towards our video and list it among the top ten list! After that, it's up to you to vote, WAJIB undi!

Will keep you guys posted on the competition, your vote means 40 000 ringgit to me.

  

"apa yang kita dah buat hari ni?"

Cuti darurat kali ini banyak membuka mata pada perkara-perkara baru. Tersedar dari kehidupan yang selama ini dilitupi selaput buih yang memisahkan diri dengan realiti dunia. Bagaimana rakyat sesebuah negara bersatu duduk berkampung dalam sejuk demi cinta mereka pada tanah air, aku pun belum tentu sanggup. Bagaimana besar ertinya mempunya sebuah tempat yang boleh dipanggil tanah air, rumah, yang selamat aman terjamin kesejahteraan, siap belanja 50 juta bawak kami balik, lepastu siap sediakan tiket balik semula lagi, sayang tak sayang rakyat dekat pelajar?. Bagaimana beruntungnya mempunyai sebuah keluarga yang sanggup membahayakan diri walaupun tahu keadaan tempat aku bukan lah masa yang sesuai untuk dilawati, datang jugak dan piramid yang ingin dilawati diganti dengan lori polis terbakar dan kereta kebal. Aku mula faham erti kehidupan, walaupun hanya merangkumi sekumit zarah dibanding dengan apa yang hidup sediakan.

Walaupun banyak masa yang dihabiskan lebih kepada membuang masa, sekurang-kurangnya masa yang terbuang tu tak sia-sia, dah boleh sedarkan aku, buat masa ni. Ada kemungkinan besar aku akan hanyut semula nanti, tapi harapnya tidak. 

Falling Off from Weldon Byrns on Vimeo.

Apa yang video ini cuba sampaikan memang tepat. "apa yang kita dah buat hari ni?" get the shot, jom usahakan sesuatu.

Tentang penulis ini: Livingkoshary wujud untuk pastikan penulisnya tidak berkeliaran di dunia nyata dengan minda psychosis miliknya. Penulis juga berkecimpung dalam paksi fotografi dan hasilnya ada di Kosharyphotos. Setiap kali lepas solat Jumaat, dia juga menulis di 100penulis, tempat yang wajib anda lawati. Penulis berpesan, banyakkan minum air kosong, dan jangan lupa baca Al-Quran.

My profiles:         Contact me:  zkushairi  zkushairism00

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"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." - T.S. Eliot

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"Rocky Balboa pernah berkata.."

Percaturan hidup tidak selalu membawa kita ke destinasi harapan, kadang-kala kita perlu jatuh dari gunung impian, pecah bertaburan, hanya untuk membina kekuatan untuk mendaki lebih tinggi, lebih jauh, lebih gemilang. Walaupun pendakian kita pernuh persediaan, penuh semangat, tidak semestinya kita kebal dari tiupan taufan realiti dunia. Rocky Balboa pernah berkata, "dunia ini tidak semestinya hanya cerah diterangi sinaran mentari disulami keindahan pelangi, ia akan menghentam kita terjunam ke dasar mantel bumi jika kita tak melawan". Tak pakcik Rocky tak tahu berbahasa Malaysia, itu hanya interpretasi peribadi.

Namun, seteruk mana badai menimpa, akan hadir saat ketenangan selepasya. Bumi akan diselebungi suasana yang paling gelap menandakan matahari akan muncul kemudiannya. Kita hanya perlu mengamati saat-saat yang kita hadapi, tak kira manis atau pahit, akan kita telan, dan jadikannya sebahagian dari diri kita.

Aku mula mengarut dengan tulisan tanpa hala tuju ini, adalah kerana, akhirnya buat kali yang tak dapat dikira, berjaya jugak video saat-saat aku bercuti darurat dimuat-naik ke you tube, tanpa ada masalah hak milik lagu dan sebagainya. Video ni pun tak ada hala tuju jugak. Maka hala tuju hidup harus ku cari.

Akhir sekali, buat wanita di seluruh dunia, hari ni hari anda, esok hari kami. Okey bukan, selamat hari wanita sedunia, ibu aku wanita, akak aku wanita, adik aku bakal jadi wanita, bakal isteri aku pun wanita. Ingat. anda mampu menggoncang dunia.

Tentang penulis ini: Livingkoshary wujud untuk pastikan penulisnya tidak berkeliaran di dunia nyata dengan minda psychosis miliknya. Penulis juga berkecimpung dalam paksi fotografi dan hasilnya ada di Kosharyphotos. Setiap kali lepas solat Jumaat, dia juga menulis di 100penulis, tempat yang wajib anda lawati. Penulis berpesan, banyakkan minum air kosong, dan jangan lupa baca Al-Quran.

My profiles:         Contact me:  zkushairi  zkushairism00

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"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." - T.S. Eliot

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"you sound just like a professional quitter dude"

I promised to write back here right after my one week jet-lag period, janji hanya tinggal abu berterbangan di udara, it accidentally exceeded another two weeks, which one week happened to be my so called adventurous seeking week, and another went to a very productive potato couch related activities, which happened after I realised that I have home-sickness disease, ya hati kental seperti aku pun punya sifat sensitif, and how I missed the art of doing nothing, home is the best place to do that you know. However, it did made me a very horrible person, I mean, virtually. In reality I'm still functioning, but in cyber world, I'm like a black sheep with a funny hat, like a chimpanzee having a diarrhoea, I was away from the crowd. Totally sorry for that. Walaupun ku sedar tiada maaf yang layak untuk ku.     

Selain alasan yang tak boleh diterima di atas, aku pun ada sedikit perjanjian dengan jiwa sendiri, kalau tak siap edit video dari semua klip-klip pendek yang direkod, selagi itulah jangan menulis, like what kind of agreement is that?, dan keadaan mula diuji dengan laluan berduri dan ribut taufan, baru ku sedar laptop sudah tak mampu untuk membuat kerja edit video. Bagai menyuruh adik kecik angkat sekotak air mineral, memang mampu tapi sampai esok belum sampai dapur, don't you dare underestimate your sister! Video yang masih lagi sedang dimuat-naikkan sekarang, how do you translate upload to Malay? I'm a bad person am I?,  merupakan klip video selama beberapa saat yang direkod di hampir semua tempat yang dilawati atas urusan rasmi dan peribadi. Jujurnya anda memang tak akan faham apa motif yang video ni bawa, because it doesn't have an objective to begin with, hanya saat-saat yang aku ingin semadikan selama aku cuti darurat yang terkejut tiba-tiba kena paksa balik ni.

And the main motivation that drives me to the keyboard, is that, I have my date for my flight back to Egypt already, kalau tak masih lagi meneruskan aktiviti kentang sofa. It came up without warning you know, without a two-weeks notice. Now I'm totally helpless, all the things that I should do before going back, not done, transferred to the next holiday checklist, if there is ever going to be a summer holiday this year that is, padan muka siapa suruh main tangguh macam nak duduk rumah tiga bulan. I'm screwed.

Harapnya video yang sedang diusahakan ni berjaya dimuat-naik ke you tube dalam kadar segera, kalau gagal kali ni, tidak akan ku teruskan lagi sebab ni dah kali ke tiga belas puluh aku cuba, you sound just like a professional quitter dude. Kalau tak naik lah video ni, aku letak je annoying orange sebagai ganti, hati dah luluh pasrah. Aku dah suruh diri sendiri untuk menulis setiap hari sampai hari yang perlu terbang, maka kita tengoklah impian tu berjaya ke tak. dream baby dream. 

Tentang penulis ini: Livingkoshary wujud untuk pastikan penulisnya tidak berkeliaran di dunia nyata dengan minda psychosis miliknya. Penulis juga berkecimpung dalam paksi fotografi dan hasilnya ada di Kosharyphotos. Setiap kali lepas solat Jumaat, dia juga menulis di 100penulis, tempat yang wajib anda lawati. Penulis berpesan, banyakkan minum air kosong, dan jangan lupa baca Al-Quran.

My profiles:         Contact me:  zkushairi  zkushairism00

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"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." - T.S. Eliot

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