"Jangan henti kalau terus maki sendiri,
jalan terus jalan jangan henti,
sampai yang terpampang hanyalah langit yang mencium bumi,"

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Akhir-akhir ni, ada satu benda yang bermain dalam kepala aku.

Dalam aku rakus menulis, menaip, menekan keypad, menyentuh touchscreen dalam facebook, twitter, blog, cerpen, dan puisi. Aku tak fikir pun bila nanti aku dibangkitkan mengadap Tuhan dan Dia mula persoalkan setiap perkataan yang telah aku tulis.

Aku tak boleh nak bayangkan.

Aku, kalau excited - persekitaran aku akan bergerak perlahan sebab aku akan bergerak lagi pantas daripada masa.

Aku akan rasa macam;

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Cepatlah,

Tapi, berapa kali cepatlah yang aku sebut pun, benda yang aku nak cepat tu aku rasa makin lambat.

Kesimpulannya, sabar.

Walaupun memang kau tak boleh sabar, buat-buat sabar.

Jadilah cervix

Kesimpulan kelas hari ni,

ikut resmi cervix (serviks?); bila ada masalah, beritahu pada badan. Jangan ikut resam ovari; bila ada masalah, disimpan-simpan.

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Prof aku cakap hari ni, kalau ada wanita yang hidap kanser serviks pada usia muda, pastikan kita tanya aktiviti seksual si suaminya. Bak kata prof, he may not be 'sincere' with his wife and transmits HPV to her.

Kita cuba bayangkan ya, secara realistik. Kalau aku kena rawat wanita tu, jadi aku perlu tanya si suami berkenaan kurikulum di luar kelasnya. Nak tanya macam mana?

"Encik, encik ada tak, erm, erm, erm, erm"

"Erm apa doktor?"

"Errremmrambaba"

"Huh?"

Hambar, pusing, dah berlalu pergi.

Habis.

kalau Ramadhan ni macam study break,
aku rasa aku lah budak yang study last minute tu.

Kalau Syawal ni permulaan exam yang akan berlangsung selama 11 bulan,
aku tak tahu lah aku boleh cemerlang tak exam kali ni.

Study break dah nak habis ni, aku rasa cara aku study tak tersusun, tak ada stratergi, tak efektif.

Habislah aku exam kali ni. Habis.

Father

One day, if my son ever asked me,
"Father, will I be able to fly high? up above the sky?"

My answer is yes, son. Yes you can. Everything under the sky is for you to venture. You can definitely fly, but sometimes looking at things closely is better than viewing it from afar up high in the sky. You can fly, but you must also first crawl, walk, run, and swim with the people around you, and when the time comes for you to spread your wings, I ask you to remember one thing; life is not about living alone. Thus, you can try to drag people around you and carry them flying with you, but you'll end up flying low and slow. Teach them how to fly instead, so that you can fly with them,

high up above the sky.

One day, if my daughter ever asked me,
"Father, will I be able to have all the sweets in the world?"

My answer is yes sweetie. Because you're already the sweetest thing in the whole wide world. Sweetness is something you will always look for when your days are gloomy, it is something precious, something rare, for your heart to feel, and Im sure people around you will find it hard to find it too. Thus my daughter, be that sweet little girl you always are, and share that sweetness with the people around you. Something good in abundance will always make you sick, but just that right amount will make you happy and cheerful, strong and beautiful,

just like your mother.

statik

Dan aku celik mata,
saat mentari datang menyapa,
namun urat tunjang terasa berat,
kaki mengigil lemah, tangan bagai terikat,

dan minda pun berkata;
"mungkin hari ni, aku kekal begini saja, statik"

-"hah pandailah statik ke spastik ke, dah malas pergi kelas tu, mengaku je lah!"
tengking kheyr pada khusyeir dalam ruang minda jasad yang sama.

Dissociative identity disorder.

-"Aku nak pergi masak shawerma instant-lah, lapar" kata khuir penuh semangat. Jasad pun bangkit dan melompat riang ke dapur.